I have went too far. God could never forgive me for all that I have done. God could never use me. God could never love me. I have thought these thoughts, but when I dig into God’s Word I realize these are lies.
In Jesus’ family tree (Matthew 1), I find a long list of those whom the world would tell us are unforgivable, unlovable. Abraham lied. Isaac favored one of his children. Jacob was a cheater and a deceiver. Judah threw his brother into a well, sold him into slavery and then lied to his father about it. Rahab was a prostitute. David was a murder and an adulterer. Those are just the “big” sins that I can recall right now. God used these people and he can use us. God is in the business of using people that the world passes by.
Look at his church. Jesus built his church on Peter, an emotional man who deserted him and cut off someone’s ear. Another of the “Saints” who was responsible for building the church was Paul, who killed and persecuted Christians. If we looked at the resumes of the patriarchs, matriarchs and saints in the Bible, we would probably never hire them. We might not give them a second chance. Thankfully, God is in the business of second chances. He transforms those that appear unforgivable, unredeemable. He uses them.
“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” I John 1:9
“The Lord our God is merciful and forgiving, even though we have rebelled against him;” Daniel 9:9
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come. The old has gone, the new is here!” 2 Corinthians 5:17
When I read things I don’t always believe them. I like to test them. Fortunately, I serve a God who can be tested. When I come to God in repentance, he forgives me and he uses me and my past mistakes. His words have always proved true in the lives of the imperfect “saints” we find in the Bible and his words have proved true in my life.
“Where can I go from your spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.” Psalm 139:9-10
We can never go too far. He is always there.